Yea, I finally finished my house plans the first week in December, after 9 months of trying to get them finished. That's a long story. And i received the permit to build just before Christmas. It was such a wonderful Christmas gift.
The day after i finished my plans i flew to California to stay with my mum who had been very sick and needed some help to get back up on her feet. I spent two weeks with her, helping her with the myriad things that she needed help with until she was strong enough to do them on her own. This was a special time as we will probably not spend that much time together again before i go into retreat. Going home this time felt very much to be a part of preparing for retreat. There's the inner getting ready and the outer getting ready.
The Christmas holidays were spent again with family, a last Christmas for maybe 4 years with my son and brothers, and step-mom. It is hard to believe that i won't see them for that long. Going into a 3 year retreat must seem totally crazy to most people. To give up all the business of life, and embark on probably greatest adventure of my life--to sit in deep meditation and transform my mind into a wise and loving mind and thus the world as well.
my little brother and friends
After the holis, i had the fortune to go and teach one of my favorite meditations--Tong Len, Giving and Taking Upon the breath.
In this meditation you take away all of someone's suffering and give them happiness. You do this using your breath. As you breath in, you take their suffering into your heart and destroy it with you love and wisdom and then you give them happiness as you breathe out.
Now I am back at Diamond Mountain, with my new building permit and i am excited to start building. I need to level a terrace in the orchard where my cabin site is and then the foundations can be built. There are a few people here, not many, and the crews are stretched thin, as 4 more cabins are being built, so i will have to wait. Until then i am helping to make others cabins happen, building, measuring, what ever is needed. I am impatient, it has been so many months of waiting and i feel like there is so little time, but i know that what i am doing will not only help others get into retreat but will help me to too.